It has been a while since my last entry to my own blog. Things have been changed in my life, mostly in a good way. I moved to Singapore away from Hong Kong back in May. Right before I left HK I went to my grandmother's funeral. She is my last reason to stay close to China, now she is no longer with me. There is no other reasons for me to return, at this point. Both of my parents are still physically able to travel and they love to travel. I think in the future, Singapore can be another place on the map worth their visit.
One thing I notice is the whole year in HK working for ADIO, the whole experience was absolutely unpleasant and frankly speaking disappointing. I have lost my passion and love toward what I do along with my motivation. Even things in Singapore are much better I still don't have that fire. The fire inside of me is long gone. This is disturbing fact because part of me just don't care or want to care anymore. I do believe whatever I used to have is not 100% gone, maybe small portion of it still there but I don't want to apply it. Afraid to apply it? Am I still not getting over that horrifying experience in HK? Am I using that experience as excuse not do well? Am I using that experience as an excuses to blame my failure? True leader takes on responsibility rather than blaming others. Am I trying to blame my failure to my past experience? If all above are true. Why am I doing this? Fear to fail again? or looking for back up if I do fail in the future?
