The universe/mighty power/God cares

Recently we are constantly getting signs, more ensure about the future and be honest it is definitely more comfort for me, knowing HIM really cares and I am not walking on this path alone.
I don't want complain anymore

Seriously I know the current situation is only temporarily, I really should stop constantly pile up the negativity in my life rather than have faith for the future. The complain, hate, anxious for the future are eating me alive from the inside. This form of cancer must be stopped.

How dare we allow fear to influence our decision, be part of our life and changes our version. Get over this hump, if next one is worse, more difficult, so what! If it means I have to fail once again so what! I will get up once again and this time I refuse to play nice. I see myself as an elephant, other animal can try to bit me, kick me, hunt me because elephants are strong and big and can take minor mutilation. But if it gets angered, the elephant will come back with full vengeance and destroy everything stands on its way.

Does the world deserves Niceness from us.

Recently I have been keep close contact with my very best friend from Chiropractic School. We graduated from the same class, did many student council related activity together, went to school administration department numerous times to get more rights for students. Yes we are partners in trouble, While we were in school, we are constantly dreaming to take on the world! We are counting down the days toward graduation because we feel like two wild tigers in the cage, can't wait to let the world hear us roar.

Three months later after graduation I stuck in Shanghai teaching two little Chinese boys English, waiting for Hong Kong licenses to practice and working visa. At that point I was very lost. I know I have good intention to serve the people here in Hong Kong but why the Universe won't allow that to happen. This experience really put my patience to test, obviously I don't have any.

Finally the day start working in Hong Kong has began. I was so excited and thinking all the waiting is well worthy. Till couple of months ago I am slowly realizing I really this time put myself in a terrible situation. I really can't blame anyone but myself. I have been too impulsive, I am the one wants things to happen right now!Okay, universe if that is why you put me go through all this crap, I think I have learned my lesson and time to move on to the good part. Yes? No? Of course it doesn't work like this. Everyday I am waiting for things to turn around, so far nothing has turned wrong in fact it is getting worse and worse.

Today the universe has given me a sign.
One of my patient Wendy, we have similar background she has studied in Canada for many years and met her husband in Canada. Now living in Hong Kong. It was just regular visit, I wasn't showing any sign of unhappy I am. But toward the end of the visit. She just said " I know you have contract with this clinic, it is not by any mean I want you to leave or anything. But I think if you want stay in Asia, Singapore will be a good choice for you" Then we start talking more about why we are very unhappy here in Hong Kong. After she left I felt comfort.

When you read here you may take this as coincidental, maybe Wendy just say that because some other events are going on, it is so happen that I was thinking about leaving here. But what I take this incident is, the mighty power the universe resonate with my desire, give me comfort that ensure I am on the right track. Do I know this for sure? Absolutely not! Do I have faith in this path, Absolutely yes!

To save or to be saved.

Just yesterday one of Jeff's new patient couldn't make to the second day report of finding. Let's just call her Ruth. He was wondering why the patient didn't show up till her friends show up the office and told him that over the weekend, the patient jumped off the building and killed herself. Reason: the pain is too much for her to continue life.

I guess I was struck by this story as well because it is not once or twice I have heard from my patients are saying "I can't take the pain anymore, sometime I just want to kill myself and end it" I often take that as figure of speech. Come on, is the pain really that bad? Apparently yes. So many times I have heard that, till now I know at some point someone out there will take death over pain.

Everyday we are working in the office, adjusting, removing subluxation and be honest, sometime I do feel this is a just a job. But if the Ruth has known about chiropracTIC, give a little patient with the ChiropracTOR and let her body resume the ability to heal herself. Would her story end differently?

There are many chiropractic stories with happy ending; there are many out there with rather sorrow ending. If the public are aware of chiropractic and consider it as option to help themselves, can we save more Ruth out there? If we as chiropracTOR see saving others as purpose of our doings. Ain't we being saved from this material fame driven world? Rather live for higher purpose of life? So toward the end Ruth actually saved us from losing the identity of who we are really do and what we do.

Are you a consumer or a producer?

Lots has been going on this week. The question keeps popping in my mind is what I am doing here and what is the things I am pursuing, what happen to my dreams.

I left United States to look for new chapter in life, an adventure, challenge myself to the next level. When I got to Hong Kong it has been difficult with language, try to understand the culture, and communicate with practice members. All that has been fun part of the adventure even it is difficult but does that mean that is all Hong Kong can offer? From time to time I felt empty, fail to serve my purpose and take on the world. I think you are a producer, you have to have something inside in order to give out the products. If you are a consumer, you are just taking materials around to fulfill that endless black hole. Be proactive rather than reactive. Instead of waiting for opportunity or hope for something to happen. Take a action instead. Be a producer, be someone who refuse to accept the current situation, and offer a product to the world.

Who do you want to be? Consumer or producer?

what does future hold for us?

What is future? It is the unknown, unfamiliar, uncomfortable and things we are afraid. What does the future hold for you? Have been reading a lot about comments from others. Many of them are struggling with life, career and family. Many of them are worried about what can the future hold for them. When the world is all happy and filled with endless possibilities for others, what about us? The world's forgotten children.

Well, I don't know what future holds for us. But one thing I do know is the presence is only temporarily, any detour you are taking now is way to discovering who you really are. Success or no success. Form what and who you really are. No need to classify yourself to any preconstructed groups, race, and class. You are you..

In my case. I am not a Chinese nor an American. I am Jenny and a chiropracTOR who can and will serve the world and change the lives of others.

Now it is your turn, fill in the following blank with proper description.
I am................

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Are we always attend to keep the bad to ourselves but show others the good

It has been about two weeks since my first blog. So far I haven't really told anyone about my blog. It is probably not a good advertisement if you keep the product to yourself. Well not necessary a product in this case. I think the reason is I am afraid my friends and family start reading the blog and see the how bad my life is right now. I know in school I am always trying to be this positive, energetic, and happy person. I tend to present myself in this way. Base on the law of attraction, being positive attracts positive things. Right now I do think I sound like a crazy person because I am a speaker without an audience, by definition I think that is insane. I am just some crazy person talking to myself.

Why is that? am I trying to be hypocrite?? Should I let my friends and family see what is really going on in my life. Am I ready to let them know what a failure I have been for last 5 months, well, honestly 8 months. If I don't change the game, it will be another god knows how many months. What should I do? What if it attracts more negativity? Recently I am getting more responses about chiropractic students are planning to practice in Hong Kong after graduation. Do I want to tell them the truth? I really don't want them to end up in the same situation as I am. I have brought this to myself I can't bring anyone else down with me. But what should I tell them. Chiropractic sucks, get off it while you are still can! You think U.S. is bad, here in HK they will eat you alive! Run! But deep inside I still know and believe how great ChiropracTIC is and it is really the only profession I know and think will change the humanity. But in reality not at all! at least it is not what I see in Hong Kong. What should I do? So many questions and my thoughts are going back and forth. What is the next step?

Fail now or later

It has been depressing day here at office. I am just sitting here check out youtube. Because I was so bored out off my mind. I was watching someone's vlog since she vlog everyday so it is interested to see other people's lives. Now you can tell how boring my life is that I have to see other people's lives. How sad. anyway, during her vlog she has mentioned that it is good to fail now when you are young, so you still have time to try it again, rather than when you are old and you can't afford to fail"

Be honest at this point I felt my first real life decision is a failure. It is my fault not to further invest the situation then jump into this decision. I have learned how this failure can totally change my own believe and identity. If I continue on this path how it can change me to a completely different person. A person without dreams, goals and ambitious. The old "me", the "me" I try to change for 4 years. All the hard work will goes out the window and I am back at where I was.

I can't let it happen, the life is too short. What I want is to keep pursuing my dreams and I don't want to go back to the dark"me" ever again. I will take whatever that is necessary to get there. So let me fail now so I can try it again and next time I am twice stronger and 100% fearless.

What happen to our dreams?

Remember when you fresh off the colleges, you are ready to take on the world. What happen to that person?

It has been about 8 months since the big move to Hong Kong. I still remember how much fire I have when I first land in HK, how I want to serve the people and change the world and play an impact toward others. How I want to set example to motivate many other Asian Women around the world. How I imagine myself as international speaker travels around the world, motivating, helping, guiding many others just like me. How I am able to talk about my bestselling book on talk shows and pass a positive message to others. All that at this point seems long long time ago. I don't even remember that "me"

What I am right now? Well stuck in office, could care less about serving others because I am just tired dealing with convincing a message that I don't even believe in. I am slowly transforming to a person who is pitiful, negative, exhausted, hateful, and could care less for anyone or anything in the world. Complain about all the things that don't go as the way I would prefer. Try to fill my empty life with night life, alcohol and items I don't need. Am I on the road to self-destruction? If I am not on it, I am definitely working toward it.

"We have no Great War. No Great Depression. Our Great War is a spiritual war... our Great Depression is our lives. We've all been raised on television to believe that one day we'd all be millionaires, and movie gods, and rock stars. But we won't. And we're slowly learning that fact. And we're very, very pissed off"

The laziness has reached new defination

It has been eight months since I moved to Hong Kong. My first impression of Hong Kong is upbeat, fast pace, and true hard working Chinese. Because who else would work seven days of week and make this city sleepless. After eight months I cannot be more wrong.

So this is how it goes. I have been looking for a housekeeper for a while, due to the long clinic hours and limited personal time. I would rather use the time I have to do the thing I enjoy, obviously cleaning is not. So Housekeeper A:
She came, did her cleaning and decide not continue after. Reason: because I left the garbage for her to throw out, which turns out to be too much work for her.....you know as a housekeeper this is what you do.

Housekeeper B:
She came, didn't even clean and decide to quit. Reason: she is afraid of my two years cat swazi. Well let me tell you little about Swazi, she is a house cat and very shy. She usually spends most of her day time sleeping in our drawers. So she is not a vicious animal, claw our your eyeball and eat you alive. Even if you are nice to her, she will come and furrrrr. Well housekeeper B is afraid of her. I specifically asked if she is allergic to the cat, no, not allergic to any animal, just simply "afraid" of animals including cat. So she didn't clean or do any of her job and left because she is afraid of 3 LB furry ball. You are a housekeeper, haven't kill a cockroach before? especially there are so so many of them in Hong Kong? Isn't cockroach an animal? I am speechless, this is the weirdest and most illogical excuses I have ever heard.

I am pretty angry with this situation, not going to lie, but angry with ..... I don't know what reason. I guess that's Hong Kong for you.

We are not in Kansase anymore

Last night after skype chat with some family members back home in good US and A. I can't stop thinking all the experience in China, Hong Kong and Asia in general. Let's see, think it is very proper to say the past 8 months in Hong Kong has been a love and hate relationship, almost like the one you had in middle school. It is your first relationship, you don't know what you are doing and trying to get the best out off it. The motivation has been going downhill since the holidays, the office has been up and down for about a month, and more I am sitting here farther away I am from the real purpose of being a Chiropractor. Sometime I just feel drop everything here and go to a third world country nothing but my portable adjusting table, and serve the people who really appreciate the care you are providing.

Hong Kong Holidays in the eyes of Americans

As many of you know Hong Kong is the New York City of China, busy streets, the city never sleeps, small apartments and local culture you can never fully understand. I have been living in Hong Kong for a while, with little bit help of my own background some of local tradition seems logic to me but majority of it either have logic or no logic at all. I am in no anyway or form to criticize this society or culture. This is merely my own personal opinions. I hope you can find this entertaining, educational, cultural shock, or whatever you would like to take with my post. Now let's talk about the Chinese New Year in Hong Kong.


Lunar Chinese New Year

Yes the Chinese have their own calendar depend on the year; it is usually one or two month behind the international Calendar.

What it is for the Chinese:

This is the longest and the most important holidays (usually about five days) for the Chinese, also called spring festival. During the holidays most of business will be closed so people can go home spend time with the family and extended family members. On the first and second day of Chinese New Year, family will visit other extended family and wish each other good fortune in the coming year. During this time of year all the Chinese will spend money on buying material goods, red decoration for their homes, meat and vegetable to prepare the big fest, chocolate, especially Ferro Rocher here in Hong Kong because its wrapper looks gold so it is really giving “gold” to friends and family. The traditional lion dance will take place on first day of CNY to evict evil spirit that is accumulated from last year.
The RE
RE is the Red Envelopes, or red pocket (big difference than the hot packet). The RE always contains money, it can range from HKD 20 to 1000. Everyone will gives out Red Envelopes that has certain amount of money inside. Usually the elderly will give the Red Envelopes to children or grandchildren as sign of bring in good fortune and luck for the next coming year. But from my observation the age thing doesn’t really apply. Employer gives out RE to the employee, residents gives RE to maids and doorman, even friends within similar age group will give out RE to each other.

What Americans see about this holiday:

Better stock up food you will need during next five days because most of supermarkets either will be closed or only open during certain days. Good time to catch up some morning or late morning movies because the theater will be half empty. Less traffic during the rush hours, check out the lunar new year fair in victory park Causeway bay and flower market in Mong Kok (only first day of New Year, most of shops will be closed after). Get your haircut before Chinese New Year because it will be a bitch finds a salon that is open. Dinning out will be little more expensive during this time of year.

What do Americans see about the RE:

The whole RE is very confusing tradition. Should we give everyone we know RE? Toward the end it really will even out. In our situation, we get RE from our employer then we need to give our secretaries RE so we end up giving secretaries the RE we got from employer. We feel that we just laundry RE money to secretaries. Seriously cut off the middleman here, we don’t feel left out with not getting RE this year. You get some RE then you give out some RE, in the most of cases it will come out even, so in my dictionary I call it how Chinese Laundry the Money, of course legally.